Blogs are meant for ranting, right?

I'm having some issues...I don't like being the person who bitches about the same shit so much that no one wants to be around me. And honestly, I feel like I've been pretty good about picking a select few people to spew my crazy all over lately, but this is an attempt to get it all out for good, so that I can stop wasting precious energy on a situation that doesn't deserve my time. So, it's official: the boy who I spent most of the summer with and the girl who has taken over my life, are together. Thank you Facebook for confirming this fact and delivering yet another emotional drop kick to the stomach. The crazy thing is, I'm not jealous. I didn't want to be his girlfriend... I knew on some level that would be a disaster, which is why I never allowed things to become too serious or defined. What hurts, is that he said he didn't want that either, yet clearly, he just didn't want it with me. I don't expect much from people, and I don't typically ask much of them. All I ever want is for people to be straightforward with me. I am painfully honest, perhaps to a fault, and there is nothing I hate more than feeling like I've been lied to, deceived, or duped. That is what is killing me right now. All "extracurricular" activities aside, he and I were friends and I never thought he would be anything less than completely honest with me about anything! I gave him so many opportunities to own up to what he wanted and to tell me what was going on. I point blank told him that if he wanted to date/sleep with Single White Female girl, or any other girl for that matter, he should just tell me and I'd take a step back. He insisted he didn't and that they were just friends/he wasn't interested/she wanted more than he could give her, blah blah blah. Well, congratulations on getting everything you said you didn't want! I just don't get why people say one thing then do another. He is an especially frustrating case because although we are on okay terms right now, if there is any chance of us salvaging the friendship we had, I'm going to need him to admit that he acted like both a coward and a lying piece of shit and I don't really see that happening. I'm not sure I've ever met anyone more confused with and less in command of their own life. If nothing else, I know I will move past my hurt feelings and anger because I suck at holding grudges and life is too short to dwell on insignificant crap that can't be changed. At least now, I can focus on surrounding myself with things that are actually good for me instead of wasting my time on these pleasant little distractions that bring me nothing but drama and blog material. Okay, well, maybe I'll hold onto a few of my distractions...